stream of consciousness

I really don't know how rational this post will be, dear reader, so do bear with me. I'm deeply angry and frustrated at the moment and all I can think of that could potentially make me feel better is by expressing it. Who said writing isn't therapeutic?

FYI, I'm also quite caffeinated. Cuz if I wasn't, I wouldn 't even try to express my anger at all. I would just slam my head into my pillow and yell...and that might turn into crying...and then I might cough up the courage to just SUCK IT UP.

I hate the idea of going to bed angry...one should be able sleep peacefully at night. I also hate the idea of being angry for really stupid reasons. In which you know that you are being completely UNREASONABLE. Because dear reader, if you are angry with someone and don't even try to communicate it to them, then how can you expect them to figure out that you're feeling awfully sucky?

I can feel the irrationality burgeoning within me again. One of my favourite teen movies ever is "10 Things I hate about you", which I think is deliciously hilarious and quirky. You know, the one with Julia Stiles and Heath Ledger before they were ever famous? It also had the dude from 3rd Rock, and Alex Mack! ALEX MACK! Teehee.
The movie is a loose interpretation of Shakespeare's "Taming of the Shrew", and at the very end of the film, Julia Stiles reads a poem she wrote in anger (thus, the title)...I thought I might want to take a crack at her format...

I hate the way you never fall apart
Unlike me, who is constantly on the brink of self-destruction
I hate your stupid smile
and the fact that it's almost always sincere
Unlike me, who can barely hold it together to express any form of happiness
I hate my own anger
and my inability to express it

gah. this is the point where I realize that this is so ridiculous. And therefore I shall not even finish this poem. I think it's time to pray...my stupid interpretation of that poem sounds like an Avril Lavigne song. and THAT is not a good thing.