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there's nothing here worth saving
there's no one here at all
is there any net left that would break our fall?

are you discontented? have you been pushing hard? have you been throwing down this broken house of cards?

you know...and I thought this year would begin differently. for once, I was feeling a real peace about what was going on around me...and simply celebrated and reflected upon Christmas in the best way that I knew how - with as few complications as possible.
I thought...this new year will be different! I will no longer quote "the blues" as a way to usher in 2007! But no...news just had to hit me over the head like that.

I know I'm ranting...and I know I'm angry...but honestly, as immature as it sounds....I just feel like going somewhere devoid of human existence and swear my head off. Most of all, I hate that the hope I was feeling yesterday, the desire to wake up, is being stripped away from me at this moment.

ugh.