weekend of almost wastefulness

I really wish I was a better steward of my time...but alas, that is not something one can just plainly wish for and get. Gotta work at it.

In all my years of post-secondary, I have never had SUCH A SCREWED UP SCHEDULE. My classes are all either in the afternoon/night...which leaves me to really work at this time stewardship thing. (I know God is laughing at me from up there. Haha to you too!)
I've been finding it tough a) getting used to school after work, and b)actually doing work on days I'm off.

this week has been ultra productive though. I've been waking up early and studying...would go to the gym at about 10am...ticking things off my to-do list, and working at a pace where I could stop and spend time with my dad, and the other dad up there. It was refreshing really, and I hope to continue in this manner...but man, on the weekend, I just crashed. I wanted to do NOTHING...purely NOTHING...had no capacity to think or feel even, and just wanted to exist for no particular reason. It was weird for me...I had never quite felt like this before, and I didn't know how to deal with it. In fact, this story has no happy ending because I haven't quite figured out the answer.

friday night was a good night though. spent time with the girls, celebrating a special 22nd bday for the clumsiest person I know. I made seafood chowder (oh my goodnesssss...it was so good. and I didn't even use cream!) and bought pate from oyama meats @ the granville island market (oh my gooodnnesss...I could eat that stuff with baguette FOREVER...) and a baguette from terra breads. oh yeah..and I made a salad as well. nothing crazily fun happened, but I think we just enjoyed each other's company...even in moments of silence. we talked about school, plans, boys, God, poo, and I think it reaffirmed my recent realization that it is such a blessing to be able to love people. to want to care for someone and to walk with them in this life...that is indeed a gift from God.