the humbling taste of failure

I have just received my midterm back from my cultural policy class and received a C+. I'm a bit shocked and quite sad frankly, and feel like knocking my head on a wall about 50 times continuously...

I know I'm going to sound like such an ass saying this...but...I've gotten used to "free riding" through stuff like this. I feel like I've been caught offguard and really need to gather my poor humpty dumpty pieces all over again. GAH!

in other news, i've been thinking about "change" a lot.

The work of salvation means that in your real life things are dramatically changed. You no longer look at things in the same way. Your desires are new and the old things have lost their power to attract you. One of the tests for determining if the work of salvation in your life is genuine is— has God changed the things that really matter to you? (Oswald Chambers)

I've been determining, in my heart, what needs to change within me...what can be transformed in order for God's work of salvation to take place? I think much of it has to do with the need to feel accepted and included...and so, slowly but surely, I'm learning to place that before God as well...to let go of it and set that free for Him to take care of.

Up next for blogging fun:
1) Fat Worm's Bday
2) "Emotional Cleavage"
3) Monday Night Classes @ Grandview