more thoughts on growing up

the prospect of a full-time job is kinda scary to me...and for the first time ever, I feel like I'm actually stepping into position that I can really stay with post-grad. (don't worry, I still want to go to law school...just gotta earn some funds so that I can actually go)

while on that walk I was talking about the other day, I also thought about how...at this point of my life, I had wanted certain things. you know, typically, those goals that one might want to achieve by a certain age...and for the first time, I was scared that some of my goals were lagging behind. it was this displeasure with "how far I've come" - (i'm trying hard to think of an analogy at the moment...and am failing miserably). it lead me to think about - are people ever really satisfied about where they are in life? will there ever be a moment where you just feel completely content with where you are?

the more I thought about this, the more I realize my own need for God's grace and God's time. I'm, after all, not the maker of my life...the goals that I lamented not achieving; they were never mine to lament about in the first place. what I do need to learn is how to live faithfully for God above, according to the guidance of the Word.

Our God in heaven,
Hallowed be thy name above all names
Your kingdom come, Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us weary sinners
Keep us far from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons