reflections about anger (pt.2)

I love the passage that I typed up yesterday...it really captures the silly nature of anger. sometimes, we grow so consumed by anger that we don't even know why we were angry in the first place. it's simply easier to feel crappy and like you don't belong - and yet no effort is being made to get you out of that hole.

a while ago, a friend reminded me that I'm responsible for the holes that I dig - it's so much easier (on me) to simply blame it on the motions, or other people's actions, but at the end of the day, I still have the choice to face my pain head on or just wallow in it. although I can often be an extremely ambitious person, I'm not very good at confronting my insecurities and dealing with pain. I like to quietly build up the hurt, up to a point where I physically can't take it anymore. It's a horrible habit.

I'm realizing that God is calling me to be brave, to take a chance and run with it. I need not be scared, and I need not accomodate the whole world. beyond the noise of career choices, relationships, family responsibility, I'm simply a child of God. in order to hear the still small whisper of God above, I need to embrace my anger and pain and just let it go.

you and I are made to worship
you and I are called to love
you and I are forgiven and free
when you and I embrace surrender
you and I choose to believe
then you and I will see
who we were meant to be