when i give myself lemons...

Despair: It's always darkest before it goes pitch black.
Failure: When your best just isn't good enough.
Defeat: For every winner, there are dozens of losers. Odds are you're one of them.
Ambition: The journey of a thousand miles sometimes ends very, very badly.

Ok, so maybe i's a bad idea looking at demotivators (from www.despair.com) when you're, well, kinda depressed. I blame it on the people who showed me the site in the first place! (blame is "the secret success to life" after all) they're funny when you're feeling fairly ok about yourself, but they're just bitter when you're feeling like crap.

i like to think that i don't give up easily; i'm not the type to just throw in the towel when things get rough. but you know what? sometimes it's really really tempting to do so. the frustration gets to me, and my mind is just not thinking fast enough...

practice, practice, practice...wisdom for the journey ahead, and above all else, i need to believe that i can CONQUER this. hard work and perseverance do amount to something right? i just gotta fight harder...

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHH! *kick*